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holy shit...I'm in love

2006-08-05T09:03:25Z

Melissa Christensen...I'm pretty goddamn sure that last name is gonna change before 2010. Yeah...I want to marry that girl. I can't stop thinking about her...and she does the things that I never thought any girl would do for me...This might be it for me...Honestly...I thought this kind of love only existed in Hallmark cards. Now I know where those greeting card companies got their inspiration. I know this entry is a little incoherent...but the main point is that I'm in love...madly in love...and I don' think I'll ever feel this way about another girl as long as I live. Simply put, I want to spend the rest of my life with her...and I think she feels the same way. Holy shit...I'm in love.

The week ahead

2006-04-09T23:19:35Z

Mellie and I have become very close very fast, but recently there has been worry expressed by both her and I that this relationship may be simply a product of chemicals. This was brought to our attention friday night when, while coming down from E and starting to feel the weed, we realized that we don't usually participate in activities sober. We are either drunk, high, on coke, on vicodin, on xanax, on ecstasy...the list goes on and on. Mellie actually had a hard time finding ONE example of when we had fun together sober...Disneyland. As a result of this stunning revelation, we have decided to take a week offf from everything...no coke, no weed, no vicodin, no booze...nothing. Hopefully this week will clear up some of the problems we've been having recently...we simply haven't been that close to one another...i hope it's just stress from school and work and financial issues and such...but a small part of me worries that this might be something more...i hope i'm just being paraniod

How it all began

2006-02-10T11:13:20Z

It started like nothing I'v ever experienced before

I met her in a bar...interviewing for a spot in a house because i needed a place to stay for the fall. MY housing with tandre had fallen through and i couldnt live at home. September started and I moved in with the girls...three's company to the extreme...just call me jack tripper. Anyway me and melissa hung out a lot during the semester...whether it be simpole trips to the grocery store which I thoroughyl enjoyed or going to a beach bonfire and totally flirting wiht each other even though we had no idea we were. We always used to slap fight and poke fun at each other, but the feelings were dismissed because youre not allowed to date your roommate. anyway the feelings kept growing and came to fluition a couple days before break. our last night together was awesome...we were closer than we'd ever been and i even put my head on her shoulder, took two pictures of us together, and tried to get her to shotgun a ht of herb with me. little did i know i was falling in love with this amazing girl. Anyway she came back one day before tha rave and we went to magic mountain. even tho we only rode one rollercoaster and 3 rides altogether, i had a blast with her...just wish we could have been closer and held each other because i knew how i felt about her. anyway TAO finally rolled around...no pun intended...and we had a blast haniging together the ENTIRE night. the sun rose to our dissapointment and she fell asleep first...i remember wanting so bad to curl up next to her in her bed but i judt couldnt do it. i awoke to see a message on my AIM about how she wwished i was awake...i messaged her back and told her to hang out with me as soon as she saw the message i was sending her. no more than 30 minutes passed when i heard rustling from her room and saw her open my door with the biggest grin in her face. I dont remember what my expression was but im sure i was smiling ear to ear as well. she curled up next to me and we cuddled for a good hour...getting closer and closer to each other as the time progressed. the hugs became tighter, and our faces began coming near e4ach other. our lips came close enought o kiss acouple times but we held back...or tried to hold back. finally after about 50 moments where it could have happened...it happened. we kissed. and it wasnt one of those crazy lusty kisses, or one of those friendly pecks...this was a passionate loving kiss that took place. "line...crossed", she said. she was right...we had crossed a line...and we were initially a little freaked out about the whole thing. but we talked ourselves through it and let our emotions take over. we've been together since and i cant think of anyone id rather be with...i love this girl, and i would never do anything to hurt her...and i know she would never do anything to hurt me either. i know about her past, and how she was treated poorly in a long term relationship...and i want to heal those wounds...i want to show her that she can be happy, that she can relax and trust me...and i know this will take time but im not going anywhere...she's my melon ball...and im not letting her go

nothing really

2006-02-04T09:31:18Z

February 3rd sucked...plain and simple
It began with Mel and I working on a puzzle that we've been meaning to put together for quite some time now. We were having a really good time just being alone and having a chilled out time. Then at around 3am Marina showed up with 4 friends drunk as fuck and ready to party. We're good hosts so we slowly disengaged out of puzzle mode and hung out with our new party people. I had to get up at 11 that morning to finish my physics homework so i planned on no later than a 4am bedtime...yes they were doing coke so i knew this was gonna be a long night. Anyway mel and i ended up sneaking in a game of beer pong which was fun and we had a good time talking to these el segundo people we had never met before. Time started moving along and before i knew it it was 5am so i began getting ready for bed. Neither of our beds were made so mel started making her bed. The party people were still bumping loud music right and playing beer pong right outside mel's room so i kindly reminded them that i had to get up early and asked if they could try and keep it down. Well they couldnt and 6am rolled around and they talked melissa into taking them ona beer run...yes you are reading this correctly...a 6am beer run. Mel left and i tried unsuccesfully to get to sleep. When they returned they kept the party going and continued to play pong even tho i was attempting to sleep in the room right next to them. at 7am i woke up to loud 2pac and realized that mel was no longer by my side. I wandered into to my room to find her making a drawing for me on the computer. It said "you are my sunshine" and had pretty colors. She was upset that i ruined yet another one of her surprises although i still thought it was very special. I wish she wouldnt get so hung up on surprises working out because even when they dont work out, i know shes trying and that means just as much to me as the surprise itself. Anyway i finally walked out of my room and not so kindly requested that the music be killed so i could get some rest before a long day of physics. Coked out marina actually showed some attitude with me which was surpsising because the other 4 were more than happy to oblige to my request. after all, this is MY HOUSE TOO. anyway i ended up getting about 2 hours of sleep and woke up at 11 and promptly finished my homework. mel was in a VERY DEEP SLEEP so i let her stay that way as i talked to our guests and basically told them goodbye. I saw marina go into my room and wake melissa. it turns out she asked if she could borrow mel's car and take her friends back to gundo. mel came out and told me about this and it annoyed both of us...not that she would ask this but that she would do it in the way that mel described it...quite rudely...anyway i hung out with mel for about 30 min more before going to class and i hit the goddamn wall in my lecture...i was actually dizzy from lack of sleep but i knew i had a 3hour lab directly after this lecture. i powered through and got done with the lab a little early to come home and see my melon ball who was just as excited to see me as i was to see her. we hung out and did a little of our puzzle before i went and took a 2 hour nap...this was badly timed because mel was not nearly as tired as me and for good reason...she had gotten more sleep than me previously. anyway i woke up and we each showered because we were dirty...very dirty...and then we tried to order pizza from pizza hut but it didnt work and they didnt even have the goddamn commmon courtesy to let us know that our delicious pizza was not going to be delivered and this pissed us off even more...probably wouldnt have been such a big deal but i was cranky due to lack of sleep. anyway we watched some more OC and realized what a shitty day it was and i just want feb4 and 5 to be better days...and they should be...were going to see dj irene for free tmrw at spundae and sun is super bowl and were having a hangout so im looking forward to a better coupole of days here...annnd now im gonna go hang with mellie cuz i miss her and shes gonna be gone all day tmrww promoting some lame movie in anaheim...peace

ihaveaclient

2006-02-03T08:04:11Z

i toldyou not to read this. i told you it would be a waste of your time. but you didnt listen. and now ou're stuck reading my gramatically incorrect, probably mispelled entry which doesnt say anything. i type really slow and thats because i dont know how to type fast. i have a new girlfriend and shes pretty damnaweome. i wil never edit this...coplete stream of conscious stuff...just let it flow...let yourself go...slow and low that is the tempo...anyway my girlfriend's name is melissa...but i call her mellie, melon ball, and mellie bean. i met her in august 2005 at a bar. i was looking for housing for the fall semester and ended up living with her. we hung out the entire semester and flirted constantly but wroteit off because we were roommates and there is such a stigma about dating your roommate. anyway shes a hoe cake...little debbie...but when winter break came we realized we had to be apart for two weeks and it hit that we were gonna miss each other terribly...and we did...anyway she came back for a new years rave we had been excited about for months and everything kinda came to a head there and now we're freakin dating. its awesome...we already know each other so well and we know we wont get sick of each other too fast because weve been living together for a semester already. she likes to correct my speech and typing...which i dont mind too much because i think it helps me to use some words better. shes got a very expansive vocabulary and one of our favorite things to do each morning is read her word of the day and try to rememberit...but we cant because te words are so damn obscure...we also like to play text twist and we are very good together...90,000 muthackas...in fact were gonna go play text twistright now so leave me alone and stop reading my journal you stalker